awwright so if you have been coming to this website still...i think youve realized i dont update it. i got a new site its www.xanga.com/Xxrawker_for_lifexX so i really dont use this one. once ppl realize that i shall shut it down. bye bye

Leah

1. ah so its sunday. havent done much of anything. but hey thats not what these damn xangas are for..tell everyone what you did with your day..um no. they are a place to vent even though it allows everyone to see your thoughts which isnt that great

2. im simply going to say that i am extremely stressed about alot of things and im really sad that school is starting. my best friends dont even live here..(NO NOT OLPE EITHER) i just cant wait to see them all again this weekend they are such great people

3. tyler. yes me and tyler are "going out". which is cool. idk really tho. i dont know whats going to happen between us and so forth

4. one thing i will let you all in on thats going on in my head. is..i really hope i dont lose one of my best friends. school is starting and he prolly wont talk to me as much anymore and im sure im just some annoying lil girl who talks to him all the time . but i hope we can stay good friends through school and still always be there for each other. i know he is really kinda just worn out and stressed about some things right now and i just dont know what to do. i called him last night to talk and catch up on life..but then i had to get off the phone so that didnt turn out too well. ...hmm..well if you read this. i just want you to know.that i will try my hardest to be there for you.. and once again..like i said before. i will TRY and do what i can do gain trust with you. thanks for everything

5. on the other side of things...Joels band is playing iths weekend i think and its going to be awesome i cant wait!!

6. bye foos (shelby likes it when i say foo)

1. i love java cat. becuz it's my friend and i love my friends

2. friends rock. i gots lots of new friends and..well..i love my friends

3 i got my hair cut AHH so did hallie and sam Ah cant wait to see them tomorrow. Hallie is my kickass cousin lol hallie we are silly...but studs!!

4. i went all night last night...with tyler..then my battery died.. (dont think perverted plz we were just talkin on the phone)

5. joel plays the 20th ..everyone go damnit...

6. bye bye FOOS!

1. i came to a conclusion last night

2. there are just some people that i hang out with now..that i am not going to hang out with anymore..i cant stand all the drama..i cant stand all the fights..i cant stand it at all..if anyone has a problem..well i just dont care becuz im over you and over the fact that i dont need some people as friends. im not trying to be mean or make anyone feel bad, but ive just came to a point in my life where i decided i need to do my own thing and let lose and find friends that i feel comfortable with and feel i can be myself around. all the labels and nasty remarks arent something im into. i can be an awesome friend i really can, but in order for you all to see that, i must find those friends who are awesome to me.

3. becuz of the decision above. you may see my outside appearance seen different also. you may actually get to see the REAL me. all this time i wear clothes that arent even mine usually becuz i feel out of place while hanging out with the people i do and dressing extremely different. so just a heads up to everyone..i guarantee you're going to see somewhat in a change in the way i act, dress, and overall appear.

4. if anyone is affended or hurt by this what so ever. i am sorry. i really am. but i just need to take time for myself and figure out where i want to be. where life is going to send me. Leah made me realize something that is completely true. i dont know where im going or what ill be . only God does and that is his decision to make. i can only live my life day by day and see what is in store for me. if its not something that makes everyone happy ..then so be it. we all realized today that not everyday is guaranteed so i am not going to sit around and waste my days trying to fit in with people who only like me for my fake actions. i will fit in with people who really understand me and will be there in times of need..my TRUE friends.

5. once again..sorry if anyone is hurt. this is only my place to vent and im not trying to direct this at certain people.okay actaully i am..sry